I gave birth to Cecilia Amaris Brighde at 2:42 am on May 5, 2019, and her birth was a pretty effective anesthetic for Lizzy’s death. For about a day. Cecilia’s birthday was a day of grace and light and even some joy for me. It was also a day during which I felt that Lizzy…
Since my two-year old daughter, Lizzy, died nearly a month ago, I have felt as though I am nothing more than a flayed, inhuman remnant of what and who I was before. I no longer know myself, nor do I know or have conviction in anything that I did before her death. I feel I…
I do not know how to start this or what to say. I am reaching out because despair is so close a companion these days, and I am desperate to connect with someone who has suffered a loss like mine. Nearly a month ago, my two-year old daughter, Lizzy, died. She had a cold and…