Cecilia has started talking to me. She is almost six weeks old, but she started chatting with me about a week ago. Newborns have this state termed “active alert” in which they are calm, quiet, and during which learning is at a peak. They spend this time looking at anything and everything around them, moving…
I have known my husband since I was 15, and for 15 years, until age 30, I believed I loved him more deeply, more desperately than I could ever love anyone else and more passionately than I ever had loved anyone else in my life. My love for him defined me, guided me, and informed…
For more than a decade, I have desired and believed motherhood to be my vocation. I felt very strongly called to it my final year in undergraduate, and since then, have collected books, toys, educational items, and even clothing for the children I wanted so badly. I jotted down homeschooling ideas, researched homebirth, and read…
In her short life, I took my Lizzy to the zoo three times. The first time, she was no more than 3 months old and spent most of the time napping against my chest in her Boba wrap. The second time, she was 6 months old, and the amount that she was able to engage…
When they told me that Lizzy was brain dead and there was no hope of her coming back, there were still things that I needed to do as her mother, and that I felt she still needed from me. I needed to lie down and hold her while the switched off the life support machine….
How Grief is Like Labor: You are repeatedly caught up in swells that you cannot control, stop, or get out of. The pain overtakes your brain and body and all you can do is just feel it until it stops. You have no choice but to go through it. There is no way out but…