Unspoken the aching nights
When yearning for you choked
The breath and mist through which
You came, craving and wonder
Sobbing soft as I told your father.
You were never anything less than a miracle.
A desire that shook my cells and marrow,
Quaking awe through the shuddering months
We shared our blood, unknown and unknowing
The joy yet to come, a shadow and promise
Of fulfillment yet unfilled, echoing still
That quiet night you came through the mists.
Through blood and honey we moved,
One body becoming two, your voice and pulse
The rhythm to which my soul now danced,
Dreaming and waking to a startling beauty
As yet unconceived, consumed and consuming,
You swept through me like an ocean.
Aviva we named you, the herald of spring,
Radiance unbounded, brimming and deep
Helplessly yours, I swam through the days
Dreaming awake your smiles and taste
The smell of your skin my compass and calm
My milk ran in rivers, your mouth a sweet need
Swollen and swelling, I swayed to your breeze.
Your body my heart now beating without
Learning to walk, past seeing and sound,
Your breathing my clock, unknown and unbound.
My baby, my life, how are you gone?
Drowning in silence, aching and wrong.
Without you the echo repeats until lost,
Tangled and endless, terror and shock.
Through the mists you came to me and
Through the mists you left,
Faced here without you, sinking bereft.
Hiding and frozen, broken and numb,
You were my reason, joined as one.
Forever will I love you, my baby, my life.
Forever will you be my why, my angel, my soul.
And until forever starts,
Forever please know–
I was born the day you were born,
And I died the day that you died.